Hope for the new year

I am wanting to take action to make myself feel better about myself. I have started yoga and it is great. I will be getting a membership soon as well. I will stop drinking soda which is going to be the hardest thing. I am trying a new acne medication to clear up my face. I am getting a new job. I am taking over our money so that things are more organized and we are BOTH on the same page as to where our money is going. I am still working on what I really want to do with my life. I have so much doubt about myself. I have "worked" so long that I really don't want to work but I will anyway because I don't want it all to fall on Ben's shoulder. I am going to try to read more as well. I don't read nearly as much as I would like to. As for everything else in my life, I am just going to let happen what ever happens. I am giving up control over things I know I have no control over in the first place. I am going to mentally work my way out of depression and I want to stop obsessing over my confusion. I have hope for my future but it is going to take time. I want to take the bad things in my life and work it like a snow ball effect. I will take care of everything but I am starting with the small things. Things I really look forward to doing. Please help and pray to keep me accountable. I DO NOT LIKE THE WAY THINGS ARE GOING RIGHT NOW AND I WANT THEM TO END!!! I desire to be happy and free to be who I am with no shame and without judgement from anyone else. I don't care if you don't like me. I am not here to please you I am hear to please God and that is it. In please God, there can be nothing wrong. I desire to be Abba's child and I will be and there is where I intend to stay.