I feel so lost lately. I have no idea what I should with my life. I am torn between feeling like I have to have a career and feeling like i can do what ever I want to do. I don't really understand my own feelings. I do, however, have FULL CONFIDENCE in the fact that I need to help people. I have considered several different career paths that have something to do with helping people in some way. I really have no idea. Ben and I have been talking about having me go to a career counselor. I am not sure how I feel about that. I have gone to counseling before and not been helped at all and I don't know how it would even help me. Although, I did think that Break Through wasn't going to help me at all and I am better now then I ever have been in my whole life. I feel good to be who I am and my past no longer defines who I am but that doesn't help with what I should do with my life. I feel lost. I know that the answers are right there but I just can't see them. It is like there is this black spot over my future. Even as Ben finishes Seminary, I can't see beyond that. I am actually worrying again and that isn't good for me. I haven't been sleeping and I know it is because I am stressed over what I will do with my life. That isn't good. I don't function well on little to no sleep . I need it to live. :0) I don't know. That is just what I am feeling right now. If anyone reads this and has suggestions, please leave it as a comment. I can use all the help I can get.