So....

I don't know what to think about things anymore. Life is funny. You really never do know what you are going to get. I have gone for a while now thinking I have things figured out and that I know what I am doing. I thought that the choices I have made were good and that I was were I needed to be in life and that I didn't need to worry about anything anymore. I have never been so wrong. I have no idea what I am doing anymore. I feel so lost. The things I have done are now seeming to be the worst things I could have ever done. I feel I should have stuck to my original plans in the first place. I was a smart kid and knew what I wanted. What I wanted when I was a kid was in my heart. I have always felt that a child's heart is the most pure thing in the world. You can trust it's purity. You know that is it right and that is what I should have thought about a long time ago. I would be so much happier now. I guess I will never know. I am stuck here in the mess I have created and I can't go back. It's done. I have completed the transaction and there are no returns in life.